how can i be sure?

The 4th day she's not in msia i realize i dont feel the same.
the day u r not here is not really good for me.
it's a burden u gv me ..i mean dad ur target is much more higher
than what i thought.whatever nothing i can do but let u scold.
i think i've screwed things up enough as it is..
no ,it's worse than it.
btw SPM result will out soon, i'm scared.
this is so not cool.
i worded hard n i lost, i have nothing to be ashamed of
but i didn't.
i afraid my result heart my parent....
but non of that makes what i did right.
i commitment to them, i said don't worry bout me
u noe ur son ain't a stupid ,those moment how self-esteem am i
but now i even more timid than a pussy cat~

1st i got to said thx for rainbow bout those wish
early morning went go clinic to apply a medical report
fake medical report to escape the fate being a botak~
but need to apply at gov clinic ....
then we hang to chi han's house..
jz wasted tome there, a nice house anyway...
after that i saw W blog .
it just freaks me out a little bit,coz obviously,
this whole thing with u means a lot to me.
ur blog kinda blur there's lot of character that u didn't
said clearly, if i say if im one of the character.
thx for gv me this opportunity pic on ur blog
i just dont want to do anythings to pressure u or drive u away.
u noe both of us jz stay away from each other.
before we always argue on phone , less contact u is coz
argument was cut off since 1st january..i've been carrying a scar on my leg since the night of the accident.
i don't know what to say while i get it. i thought u will care more
bout me, if ya it might be a good start, but it seems so out of
blue. we r still the same two people that who sms always.
im the man who was in love with u..and i still am
i mean u r still my in need friend.
BW is jz a small part of the world and mayb it's where u
belong, there so much more out there.
i realized i only know myself as a student n son
i've got to find the rest of me.
W, it was a dark day when u said no to my proposal.
but u noe i can live without that , i dont need u to love me .
but u've got to open up ur heart for somebody.
u've got to let some 1 discover how staggering u r.
but wherever i end up, u can always call or visit.
i just dont want outslutted u.
let's tell the truth,i prefer be silent coz
btw i wanted to thank you for filling in some of the blanks for me.
u deserve to be happy, nobody deserve it more, but so does the boy u love.
before im quite confuse that i love ur of im in love with u?
coz sometimes romance confuse a friendship.
now i get it we r jz friend , n i love u...
i guess i never really let my heart completely go there.
all the best for ur exam~


Some people believe that ravens guide travelers to their destination.
others belive that the sight of a solitary raven..is consider good luck.
while a group of ravens predicts trouble ahead.
and a rraven met before battle promises victory.
SPM ravens , i got u and im gonna shoot u down.
the real world's always gonna be out there, and there's no going back.