christmas

i don't want a lot for Christmas. There is just one thing I need, I don't care about the presents Underneath the Christmas tree I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true... I won't ask for much this Christmas
I won't even wish for snow
(and I) I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeer click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
All I want for Christmas is
You... yea yea

final destination

since i am a big boy and u r a big girl now . i believe that we can solve our problems by ourselves.
u r the who knock me down and im the one got to make it stop.
this would be the end of story ..
end of us...

hope disappear blog disappear.

u r the one who make me to blog
and u r also the one make me stop.

原来落花有意随流水，流水无心恋落花。。。对不起，是我自作多情。
it's a final big . between us



blog closed!!!

home sweet home

it's amazed that she still remember me.
anyway i'm gonna wish happy belated birthday to d'siang , zying and vincy.
it's a study week but i still back form nilai .
guys guess how long we took from nilai to penang?
holy shit, we departed at 12.30 but arrived at 7.45.
the traffic jam was so so serious ,lots of accidents.
celebrated raya sounds happy but when one of your family members met with an accident
sigh...it's totally a nightmare..btw selamat hari raya i wish to all Malays.

there's will be always more comfort to sleep on own bed .
there's no others in my house except my akak.
a little lonely that's why i talk on phone with angleline until 3++.
she is just so funny and concern bout others.

hang out with yi sian to sunway, just to eat pizza!!!
After that went to zying bday party, with dudes ts. there's no me on all the photo=.=
after that drove honda shadow to tomyam . but there's sum rain drop few seconds after my food arrived...it's gonna rain(da bao and run) cause im the only one went by bike.
At that midnight a little memorable about us or should i say she and I.


nothing much to share about, just back from stranger's wedding dinner with wei kit (just represent my dad to attend). gossip about girls...
seriously that it's better be a batch or remaining the relation with your friends neither evolute further compare with in a relationship(for me).
whatever i found and ideal girl but she is not belongs to me.


Got to hunt for new one but it's not that easy cause there's all pretty girl when you see from the back view but in fact ......
i'm just simple like others i hope my ideal girl just got to a little more intelligent than others enough , everyone should be knowledgeable about the world around. she should be compassionate are bare kindness for everyone around her. she must not be hot-headed and also be milling to forgive mistakes. lastly , she must be able to express her her true feelings to me and not keep secrets between us so i will know that our love is true.
just for your information,i am officially single right now.

please stay still

the muted light of yet another cloudy day eventually woke me . i lay on my arm across my eyes groggy and dazed once i think of 2ml's exam. the "lan jiao jei' just finished his exam yesterday, but this morning he went to Genting and will be back to us in few couple days. im trying my best to study now but something, a dream let me felt i couldn't pass the exam.

you fell ill? or what?
don't talk about something negative ok?there is beauty in everything, you just need to know where to look.
if that's real, i would say yes.
perhaps i'm not the main character in your life but i do like to be any of tiny character to assist you to see your smile just like how the others waiting for.you are strong that's the only reason why i'vent give up. you will be just like how you are, you can adapt you will survive.

there is 2 type or boy 1st is you go nasty anorther is you in detail, maybe i won't be the one you love today but i willl let you go for now and hoping one day you will be back to me cause i worth to be wait.

this is collage life

Sorry for not updating my blog for months.
kinda busy with collage life. one of my friend said there is 3s in collage.
they are study,social and sleep, and every one just able to choose 2 out of 3.
sleeping, i had ignore it for weeks, that's why i have a serious eye bag right now.
few weeks ago i felt ill for whole 2 weeks. i thought i'm one of the h1n1 victim ady,
but lucky i'm not that jinxed.
there is no doubt that every time i felt ill, it reminds me of my loving and respondible mother.
when i was a little boy , every times i felt ill. she would wake up every night just to confirm i eat the medicine and get cover by blanket. The red fuzzy blanket just make me feel so safe and warm.i can still remember what's kind of feeling is that, it's just more than words.i love you mum.time goes by, i wish i still can sleep with mum just like when i'm a little boy.

Shared part of my study life with you guys, i did presented normally but one of my friend, once he stepped on the stage . the 1st sentence stunned whole all the people, morning raymond . Raymond is our lecture i couldn't admit his presentation mark is higher than me. Maybe his face funny enough so lecture give him higher i whispered.here we are, we like to took pic in the wash room and it call "man".
and one more person who i most hated in my class. He is so lousy and ego guy i ever seen.
he like to ans the question out loud all the time teacher asked and when discuting he don't even want to say anythings. He like to see people assignment just to make sure his was better, or you can see in another way copycat. i still got to faced him for 2years more and here is the nightmare begins.
this is the siao lang(the left 1). his name is zhong jei or ppl call "lan jiao jay". He is fun loving and livewire of a party. he has nothing bad just the mouth like to shot ppl nia. he corrected my english all the times not i don't like but not infront of public. watching people misfortune is a kind of favourite that he taught me.

Part of our school librarians get h1n1 , it's quite serious . wondering should i wear mask to schoold or not. lecture said our schoold might be closed for few days a good news ever since the 1st day i'm here.final exams is around the corner, got to study hard somemore tomorrow is stact club installation night. will post some pic asap i promised.

Learning something new can be a scary experience,one of the hardest things i 've ever had to do was learn how to ignore you in my life.i also thougt didn't in touch with you for a moment will erase your name out of my brain. what's i didn't realize was learning that is even more though than my study and i have no more strength to ignore you anymore.

short post till here, there is still a presentation for me 2ml. take care(all the viewers)
expect the unexpected on my birthday.

my life in inti-uc

Yes people, I know it has been ages since I came on, but I've finally got
somethings to share today. the pic up there show 1 of my inti's best friend that get jpa scolarship...1st i went to Genting for 7 times just in this 2 months.
this 1st of the pic i took while waiting dad
guess what car i have seen at there???
it's a like some of u guys expected..
something that proudly to share with u guys
my dad won 1st runner up for his golf tournament
and we get a free maxims suite for 2 nights free

this a kind of bad habit that wont change..vain..

i met some nice housemates like zhong jei, raimi and hazim.
just finished my English test on Thursday , there is still a lot of tests onwards.
a good news and a bad news to share with u guys...
regarding the good news is dad bought a new 600cc nissan shadow, it's freaking cool.

it have been driven whole the morning....i"m the "shadow driver. nice name,huh?
bout the bad news is sis speech day will be held on 19 sept ,
sigh!!! i have a lot of classes whole the vacation period.
in fact i have no chance to go if there's a miracle.
slept around 3pm last night but wake up around 6 to acc my grandma to beach learn
tai zi...it's a nice view....
a whole afternoon chatting with W , i realize we are difference right now.
i"m really regret with what i decided at the past...if the time can previous back i wish
i will hold on but it seems too late to spread all of this.
someone told me just let the bygones be bygones.
after that whole day hang out to sunway with ee tyng
and watch beach volley ball competition.
clb loose jor.........sigh
short post till here.

start of something new

well, im going to enroll tomorrow
a new life which i never had,....

headed to genting when thursday night, the firework is so so cool
then met with brother chun for some insane incedent..
now at uncle house ...countdown for my new life.
n with a lovely heart wish to my 2nd sis hay bday...

finally, i just left 9hour plus to go ns...
headed to sakae with dudes....
not going update for a long long time~
wish me luck~
adios~

moodless~

About the things.

1st time used other's pc to have my blog...
my past few days passed without eventfully.
spent all the afternnon in the usualy bz shop,worked most of the weekend.
i pack my stuff and got ahead kl...not study but just a kind of snaking....
the rain stayed softly along the ipoh highway until uncle's house.
reached uncle's house around 5pm then have dinner with curry fish..
people greeted me...aunt's relative, i didn't know all their names,
but i wave back and smiled at everyone.
those two cute cute relative busy with their exam..
1 of the them nicholas, asked me bout his hw...chinese i duno how to read it...
he said...so do i......pai seh nia...


4th march
when i opened my eye in the morinng.everythings jz remail same...
something was diffrent jz im in the diffrent room..
early in the morning after have the lunch decided go to fetch jocelyn with uncle
there's still an hour until her class end .
uncle fetch me to benz carriage..he pointed on that car..
wow it's s600...
haven't u seen it before? he asked inredulously.
'sure i have' i paused .'on tv'
he laughed....the i received msg from se to ..
might go to find her later...
after shower uncle fetch me to lrt station chenaged ktm
to reach my destination. she wait me infront of carefour .
she changed ....pretty n mature alot....plus a humoer laughed there...
when she saw me, she jz like usually
smiled widely,flashing a set of perfect,untrawhite teeth.
it's raining so have our tea time there.....
how im with my recent life, she ask
playing and come kl oftenly..
y both of us r same a student but y diffrent life
'that doesn't seem fair she shurgged,but her eye were still intense.
i laughed without humor.hasn't any 1 ever told u?
life isn't fair....she dod and agreed i guess...
walk a long long route to taylor
she's still blur enuf to find out where did she put her books..
after that meet wan xing, their house jz taylor nearby...
izit all girl like to shopping...acc them to fews shop nearby..
they can even spent an hour in the shop for buy nothing..
i rmb clearly that while in the shop that name cats whiskers
totally a pinky world there....the fitting room jz used some
cloth that can look throught it....i earned sum...hiak hiak...
step on the wrong ktm so need 2hour++ jz able to reached uncle's house
>.<

kinda tired now........tata~

how can i be sure?

The 4th day she's not in msia i realize i dont feel the same.
the day u r not here is not really good for me.
it's a burden u gv me ..i mean dad ur target is much more higher
than what i thought.whatever nothing i can do but let u scold.
i think i've screwed things up enough as it is..
no ,it's worse than it.
btw SPM result will out soon, i'm scared.
this is so not cool.
i worded hard n i lost, i have nothing to be ashamed of
but i didn't.
i afraid my result heart my parent....
but non of that makes what i did right.
i commitment to them, i said don't worry bout me
u noe ur son ain't a stupid ,those moment how self-esteem am i
but now i even more timid than a pussy cat~

1st i got to said thx for rainbow bout those wish
early morning went go clinic to apply a medical report
fake medical report to escape the fate being a botak~
but need to apply at gov clinic ....
then we hang to chi han's house..
jz wasted tome there, a nice house anyway...
after that i saw W blog .
it just freaks me out a little bit,coz obviously,
this whole thing with u means a lot to me.
ur blog kinda blur there's lot of character that u didn't
said clearly, if i say if im one of the character.
thx for gv me this opportunity pic on ur blog
i just dont want to do anythings to pressure u or drive u away.
u noe both of us jz stay away from each other.
before we always argue on phone , less contact u is coz
argument was cut off since 1st january..i've been carrying a scar on my leg since the night of the accident.
i don't know what to say while i get it. i thought u will care more
bout me, if ya it might be a good start, but it seems so out of
blue. we r still the same two people that who sms always.
im the man who was in love with u..and i still am
i mean u r still my in need friend.
BW is jz a small part of the world and mayb it's where u
belong, there so much more out there.
i realized i only know myself as a student n son
i've got to find the rest of me.
W, it was a dark day when u said no to my proposal.
but u noe i can live without that , i dont need u to love me .
but u've got to open up ur heart for somebody.
u've got to let some 1 discover how staggering u r.
but wherever i end up, u can always call or visit.
i just dont want outslutted u.
let's tell the truth,i prefer be silent coz
btw i wanted to thank you for filling in some of the blanks for me.
u deserve to be happy, nobody deserve it more, but so does the boy u love.
before im quite confuse that i love ur of im in love with u?
coz sometimes romance confuse a friendship.
now i get it we r jz friend , n i love u...
i guess i never really let my heart completely go there.
all the best for ur exam~


Some people believe that ravens guide travelers to their destination.
others belive that the sight of a solitary raven..is consider good luck.
while a group of ravens predicts trouble ahead.
and a rraven met before battle promises victory.
SPM ravens , i got u and im gonna shoot u down.
the real world's always gonna be out there, and there's no going back.

lame NS

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love

There are so many people who cannot show emotions and feelings very easily included me. Many times they are misinterpreted as being cold or unfeeling and pay the consequences when, all the while, they just want to be open and expressive like everyone else.

They just can't.

have i ever told u that if i sit really still silent sometimes.
i like to think i could hear ur hear beating.
when i lead along ur hand u touched my heart .
it's too competive to being with u but it's best moment ever~
i would gv everything up' just for a night to be able lay near u
i dream u often , i dream of u reaching out touching my hand
simply to let me know that u r there n eveything IS OKAY.

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart


u noe u love me too~

Valetine's day

Love is life. All, everything that I understand,
I understand only because I love. Everything is, everything exists,
only because I love.

Yep'here im...keave n im back~
first i wish every 1 who view my blog
HAPPY VALENTINE !
Some people think of Teen Love and smile. It's not real love, they say. Puppy Love, they call it. Those people, I think, have very short memories, and no longer recall the realities of their first love experiences. While few expect teen love to last a lifetime, that hardly makes it less real. Half or more of all adult love doesn't last a lifetime either.
Teen love is very real. And powerful. Perhaps at no other time in our lives are the joys and pains felt as strongly, or experienced more deeply. Who among us, after all, can ever forget our first love?
As i wish i able to share a part of time in the day with
her~ Love is life.
but dad..ruin my plan destroyed my dream~


my plan A~

Sometimes the simplest dates like a picnic in the park, watching a movie on the couch, making dinner at the ship can be the best. With her, even the most ordinary activities can feel special and romantic. On the other hand, getting flown to Tahiti in a private helicopter or something would be pretty cool too, i guess i
think too much~
B
present=Make a Video that bout our time we spent together,Buy roses
for her, if possible sure a dozen ,hide them in different spots of a place somewhere in the mall, i guess she will be suprise.. then candlelit dinner under the stars, preferably to the accompaniment of some music playing off somewhere in the background. vanue sure near a lake or pond to make the ambience even more romantic. ten rent a small boat and row it after dinner to go out to the middle of a lake and watch the stars.

the real situation here, the worst situation~
Well, we had literally just started dating, so we’re getting to know each other, but it’s Valentine’s Day, she made me a bunch of kim garry's sugar, =.=…but, you know, it was just very sweet. Randomly hunting for couple's shirt but empty harvest we get..just few pair of clb couple i'd seen at qb mall And, so, honestly, it was an amazing date.She fooling around just like a cute insane ,she made me happy, which nobody had ever done before. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
ans dad's call, he just bla bla bla(scolding)
3min passed he end the call
we back around 6 before that we had some drink at old town
sud i felt strengthless perhaps the call neither that problemsome
oldtown coffee....dad once again u break the chance to let me change
our relation to the better days
a hollow valetine's nitght~


valetine's day acctually do u guys noe it's history???
share with u guys~
Every February, across the country, candy, flowers, and gifts are exchanged between loved ones, all in the name of St. Valentine. But who is this mysterious saint and why do we celebrate this holiday? The history of Valentine's Day — and its patron saint — is shrouded in mystery. But we do know that February has long been a month of romance. St. Valentine's Day, as we know it today, contains vestiges of both Christian and ancient Roman tradition. So, who was Saint Valentine and how did he become associated with this ancient rite? Today, the Catholic Church recognizes at least three different saints named Valentine or Valentinus, all of whom were martyred.

One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men — his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

Perfections ain't so perfect

dad, i ain't perfect i try my best to being a good
son either a good boy in your heart, i dont know that
what sort guys you'll gv the full marks .
i just wanna said i tried my best even much more than that
responsible ? i aint? i want be it too....who aren't?

11jan
jump to the night.....hang out to pasar malam with ks
hui xin and ah peik~
meet alot of ppl that r frequent.
i thought there will be some nice dinner for me
but i ate 4 bread as my dinner...=.=
coz buy 3 free 1...
then take a peek with lady clothes whether suitable for me
LOL
plan to buy somethings pink for mou jie
but buy nothing then had supper at tom yam.


12jan
dad's shop again...i ain't machine
i wont pay all my attention with job that less income
better said no income....
investigated that there is only fun in night...for me.
went to carefour with grandma,dad,mum n aunt
spent alot of $$ there..i can't belive that i bought
a new shoes again..

then went to tesco for the 2nd round
they cheat~

there is rm5.48 right? but when paid the amount is rm6.48...
scold by dad agian, i proved that they cheat but what my dad said
i dont want to noe how ur procedure going on,what i want is
the result....the result!!!
spechless then nightfare for the night.




13jan
samethings...dad's shop..watching dad's back..i fell that
getting far i mean relation, whatr he expected is much more
higher then current me...i hope that i cant evolution asap.
then went go propery fair, acctuall not a fair
just a expo, imporved my knowlage again~
having dinner with hy at little chef..
she is just so sunshine and with a laught line always~
she said i zhi lian , i admit

but i wanna ask who aren't???
when i watching the mirrorshe thought i was looking
at myeslf,but i was acctually flirting her form across the
opposite mirror ,i caught his eyes and appearance in the reflection.
she laughted and told me i was still lame after finished the meal~
she liked romance song such as song bird , i can finally
replate the song, thx kenny G.
i fetch she back n saw her mum waiting infront house
she got to attend piano class so i got to hurry up.
mission completed~
then have some sport game with uncle them~


until now just end the call chat with her..

that's all
times to bed.....good night n sweet dream~


meanings of kiss
Kiss on the hand - I adore you.

Kiss on the cheek - I just want to be friends.

Kiss on the chin - You are cute!

Kiss on the neck - I want you.

Kiss on the lips - I love you.

Kiss on the ears - Let's have some fun.

Kiss anywhere else - You're the best.

memo
as i stood outside wathing my breath merge with the moon
and the starlight, i realized that she will never need me
as i need her to need me...
love is a many splendored thing, some 1 said
and i belive we look each other buy chance and destiny is the
question..
slowly i wass falling it's truth even knowing .
only too late to find it out,i have no choice but accept
my fate...
i lied...and i always~
i said i didnt love u.
i lied,not bcoz i wanted to but because i love u and i still do~
i wounldn't do thing to hurt u, but i just have to let go
i cant hold on much longer coz for us there's no
FOREVER!!!

cake?? i like to eat...

too lated to blogging , not really remember whats is really
going on in my past few days~
not really busy but just lazy and mad~

8jan
for that night it's a great night to me, kang yi and those
who attended the birthday party~
go IRC when that time i'm still a patient
mum not really allow me to went out coz im so troublesome
i'm the latest present ....

just take a peek how cute and how charming he is~
he is the 1 that sunshine ,patience, responble and the one touch
my heart~ proud to being his friend~

9jan
keave sleeping....having a nice dream~
ring,ring,ring!!!
jess calling...
keave said:who'd there??
jess said : jess la!!!
keave said: anythings???
jess said: come to apollo play basketball with us..got some malay boys here~
keave said: that's all?
jess said : yep~
=.=
go played basketball awhile then hanging out with ju bin,jess n ah piek
at jusco~
watched bed time stories for 2nd time~
wanna complain bout the cinema ...noob 1
just switch on the air cond after the movie started for few min.
then buy apple donuts and having dinner at pizza!
ah piek paid for us~ so good

1st time see ppl used tis type or method eat donut~
ks celebreate his bday at BM then i rush to there after completed my
mission~ when i almost reached the selected locationthen
he phone me n said now we on the way to sunway
=.=........then go sunway lo~
how noe~ he havent reached yet ...wait him for 30 min
it's really hard to face to face wish him~

snap it while the strom going to held on~
fooling around show u guys a pic that bout my dude
he is jz so cute


9jan
hey koon tee ( the one that like to keep hiself alone)
happy birthday, IRc again
boring la ~ gave him a book that solve his problem~
that day i just drank a cup of coffee
but i got to paid 400%service charge and 100% gov tax
=.=

memo
i started being blur who u r, being far with u
and i knew it'a a good news for me~
recently being closed with hui yee~
chat a lot and mad alot~


song of the day
mad- ne yo
mmm, she's staring at me i'm sitting wondering what she's thinking,
mmm, nobody's talking, cause talking just turns into screaming,
ohh, and now im yellin' over her, she's yellin' over me,
all that that means, is neither of us are listening,
and what's even worse is that we don't even remember why we're fighting.

so both of us are mad for, nothing
fighting for, nothing
crying for, nothing (woah)
but we wont let it go for, nothing
no not for, nothing
there should be, nothing
to a love like what we got, oh baby

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

and it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing,
asking questions like you already know
we're fighting this war, baby both of us are losing
this ain't the way that love is supposed to go
what happened to workin' it out?
we get fall into this place where
you ain't backin' down
and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now?

it's all for, nothing
fighting for, nothing
crying for, nothing (woah)
but we wont let it go for, nothing
no not for, nothing
there should be, nothing
to a love like what we got, oh baby

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

oh baby, this love ain't gon' be perfect
and just how good its gonna be
we can fuss and we can fight
long as everything's all right between us
before we go to sleep
baby we're gonna be...

ohhhhh

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

i love all my buddies

lol , attend birtday party for 3 time in the a week ..a same week
they are best buddies since past until now and i will try my best
to hold it on as long as im still breathing~
once again i wish happ bday again..
to kang yi ,jehovah(not the god), koon tee.
I like you because of
who you are to me….
A true friend.
And if I don’t get this
back I’ll take the hint.

from now on i will keep in touch with them ( my best buddies)
sum 1 teach me how to maintain it~ and i not be selfish~
so i decided to share with u guys
How Friendship Break


How Friendship Breaks


The reason for the break of friendship is very simple.These are the silly reasons for that

1.Both the friends think the other is busy to call and contact.and will not contact thinking that may be disturbing to him.then time pass on.They forget to contact further.

2.Next they think why should I contact now,let the other friend call me.The ego comes
in between friendship.Thus time pass on to months and at times years.Thus weakness the bondage.They forget each other in their day today work.

So friends do not make these silly excuses to break Friendship.Friendship is like our back bone to make us stand straight.Now a days communication is very much advanced so can make a phone call and say Hi------.or E-mail each other.

not really like the feeling~ i mean illness~

hi peeps. sorry for late posting..
plan to blog yesterday,buti'm really in the bad condition
throat pain.headche,fever,common cold and strengthless~
not really like the feeling~

2jan went go queensbay with 2 junior also the so call
ex-gf ..everthings just really out of my expectation
just so smooth~ after reached having lunch at dragon i
lol, just lost my appetite cause of their weird and disgusting
expression..1st lovee help me snap a pic..

after that hunting for new movie
finally watch bed time storries, it's just so nice
i hope after i said my story it will be true too~
then keep chatting n shopping until 6 smtg.


3jan i start ill keeping serious
attend fren's wedding his heigh is much more higher then me

n i meet a school mate there, she's jz like a drug to me
i'm really addicated by her smile, n her appearance
the bridgeroom is so alike my senior

then gather at island red cafe~ winford and jehovah going to continue
their edu at KL ..all the best for them
but now jehovah is coming back coz sum personal reason
i miss u guys... i really really do
damn tired at the nite of the day
strengthless to do anythings but sleep~

4jan
whole body jz like beat by sum 1 else, so pain n tired
afternoon play besketball with frens
better alot now~
so blog till here for today~
bed time archives~
good nite~

a brand new year~

well today is the first day of 2009, acctually nothing special for me
i wont knew it is a new year if without calendar~

when 30th i went to sch get christmas present from jess
at the same time get a 'owe meal from rainbow'..
i got to congratz to 3 of my ex 1st
1 get 6 another 7 a n rainbow get 8 a..
well done girl~
jz having lunch at apex,the same day my parents went to bangkok
to praY, so this might be a hollow new year for me~

when 31th adrian invite me go gurney
walao a ~ his aeroplane ...damn big
he said i should depart around 11 but he reached around 5...
it might be fate well i departed the penang's jetty i meet W
in the rapid bus a little shock .
she with her fren that name yun yin if not mistaken
help two old lady for the free seat~
randomly walking at gurney a couple minute then i meet W again
she seems like hiding from me..
i just got to say u could run but u couldnt hide~
meet her a theme park again...then she go sing K
obviously is avoiding from me...
i go MPh bookshop to hunt twilight novel .
spent rm35.50 to brought it..
then go milani cafe to rest n enjoyed my tea time with a cup of cappucino and
tiramisu~ meet esther there ..she mature alot and work as a waitres too~
them stupid adrian called me n said he reached ady. acc him brought a adidas
casual shoes and espirit formal shirt total rm299+199=498
he is jz so rich~ then call W to gv her a full stop present.
a necklace~
she looks at me with a laucht line and said thank you then
she's gone~
when night i keep calling her but she didnt ans my call.
i cant asleep~ totally a little girl name jit ming phone me
i just saja chit chat with her..she is so merely and childish~
slap around 4 am

1januray i make a call to here again n again
finally she ans and said now she's in the car right now
then text me the ans is no~
im so hurt ~just forget it~

memo
since we last time meet nothing changed between us and i can see
into ur eyes that something u wanna say to me
cause usually right now you'd wont hold on me but instead u telling me things have changed
and recently u found some 1 that u cecided to dedicate ur life
what hurt the most to me is letting go i just want u to know
i love u so ..so much and i thought u will wait for me.
i should took the chance and settled down
silly of me though i'll always have ur heart
i hate some one new coming and taking away my place
what am i suppose to do?
and there is no one else in this world for me but u.
i love u ,damn much n much more then he could.

Before I met you I had no clue what love was all I cared about was myself. Then we found each other and I truly found out what love was. Food lost its flavor, the whole world became hazy to where I don't even remember much of what happened. The only thing that mattered was you and being able to put my arms around you. We didn't even need to say anything, just stand next to each other and share our body heat. My true weakness was in her smile. Her face made me realize that everything was ok in the world and I honestly thought that this had to be heaven. Then when she left me it was honestly the worst feeling in the world. I felt like dieing, no, worse, I felt like dieing 1000000 times or ripping my heart out of my chest hoping and praying that if I did that I wouldn't hurt so much. Loosing a lover is the worst feeling in the world and it does the worst things to you. Ever since then I have never really expressed my self fully in fear that I would feel that kind of pain again.give another chance pls...i want to hold it on all the time~