Perfections ain't so perfect

dad, i ain't perfect i try my best to being a good
son either a good boy in your heart, i dont know that
what sort guys you'll gv the full marks .
i just wanna said i tried my best even much more than that
responsible ? i aint? i want be it too....who aren't?

11jan
jump to the night.....hang out to pasar malam with ks
hui xin and ah peik~
meet alot of ppl that r frequent.
i thought there will be some nice dinner for me
but i ate 4 bread as my dinner...=.=
coz buy 3 free 1...
then take a peek with lady clothes whether suitable for me
LOL
plan to buy somethings pink for mou jie
but buy nothing then had supper at tom yam.


12jan
dad's shop again...i ain't machine
i wont pay all my attention with job that less income
better said no income....
investigated that there is only fun in night...for me.
went to carefour with grandma,dad,mum n aunt
spent alot of $$ there..i can't belive that i bought
a new shoes again..

then went to tesco for the 2nd round
they cheat~

there is rm5.48 right? but when paid the amount is rm6.48...
scold by dad agian, i proved that they cheat but what my dad said
i dont want to noe how ur procedure going on,what i want is
the result....the result!!!
spechless then nightfare for the night.




13jan
samethings...dad's shop..watching dad's back..i fell that
getting far i mean relation, whatr he expected is much more
higher then current me...i hope that i cant evolution asap.
then went go propery fair, acctuall not a fair
just a expo, imporved my knowlage again~
having dinner with hy at little chef..
she is just so sunshine and with a laught line always~
she said i zhi lian , i admit

but i wanna ask who aren't???
when i watching the mirrorshe thought i was looking
at myeslf,but i was acctually flirting her form across the
opposite mirror ,i caught his eyes and appearance in the reflection.
she laughted and told me i was still lame after finished the meal~
she liked romance song such as song bird , i can finally
replate the song, thx kenny G.
i fetch she back n saw her mum waiting infront house
she got to attend piano class so i got to hurry up.
mission completed~
then have some sport game with uncle them~


until now just end the call chat with her..

that's all
times to bed.....good night n sweet dream~


meanings of kiss
Kiss on the hand - I adore you.

Kiss on the cheek - I just want to be friends.

Kiss on the chin - You are cute!

Kiss on the neck - I want you.

Kiss on the lips - I love you.

Kiss on the ears - Let's have some fun.

Kiss anywhere else - You're the best.

memo
as i stood outside wathing my breath merge with the moon
and the starlight, i realized that she will never need me
as i need her to need me...
love is a many splendored thing, some 1 said
and i belive we look each other buy chance and destiny is the
question..
slowly i wass falling it's truth even knowing .
only too late to find it out,i have no choice but accept
my fate...
i lied...and i always~
i said i didnt love u.
i lied,not bcoz i wanted to but because i love u and i still do~
i wounldn't do thing to hurt u, but i just have to let go
i cant hold on much longer coz for us there's no
FOREVER!!!

cake?? i like to eat...

too lated to blogging , not really remember whats is really
going on in my past few days~
not really busy but just lazy and mad~

8jan
for that night it's a great night to me, kang yi and those
who attended the birthday party~
go IRC when that time i'm still a patient
mum not really allow me to went out coz im so troublesome
i'm the latest present ....

just take a peek how cute and how charming he is~
he is the 1 that sunshine ,patience, responble and the one touch
my heart~ proud to being his friend~

9jan
keave sleeping....having a nice dream~
ring,ring,ring!!!
jess calling...
keave said:who'd there??
jess said : jess la!!!
keave said: anythings???
jess said: come to apollo play basketball with us..got some malay boys here~
keave said: that's all?
jess said : yep~
=.=
go played basketball awhile then hanging out with ju bin,jess n ah piek
at jusco~
watched bed time stories for 2nd time~
wanna complain bout the cinema ...noob 1
just switch on the air cond after the movie started for few min.
then buy apple donuts and having dinner at pizza!
ah piek paid for us~ so good

1st time see ppl used tis type or method eat donut~
ks celebreate his bday at BM then i rush to there after completed my
mission~ when i almost reached the selected locationthen
he phone me n said now we on the way to sunway
=.=........then go sunway lo~
how noe~ he havent reached yet ...wait him for 30 min
it's really hard to face to face wish him~

snap it while the strom going to held on~
fooling around show u guys a pic that bout my dude
he is jz so cute


9jan
hey koon tee ( the one that like to keep hiself alone)
happy birthday, IRc again
boring la ~ gave him a book that solve his problem~
that day i just drank a cup of coffee
but i got to paid 400%service charge and 100% gov tax
=.=

memo
i started being blur who u r, being far with u
and i knew it'a a good news for me~
recently being closed with hui yee~
chat a lot and mad alot~


song of the day
mad- ne yo
mmm, she's staring at me i'm sitting wondering what she's thinking,
mmm, nobody's talking, cause talking just turns into screaming,
ohh, and now im yellin' over her, she's yellin' over me,
all that that means, is neither of us are listening,
and what's even worse is that we don't even remember why we're fighting.

so both of us are mad for, nothing
fighting for, nothing
crying for, nothing (woah)
but we wont let it go for, nothing
no not for, nothing
there should be, nothing
to a love like what we got, oh baby

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

and it gets me upset girl when you're constantly accusing,
asking questions like you already know
we're fighting this war, baby both of us are losing
this ain't the way that love is supposed to go
what happened to workin' it out?
we get fall into this place where
you ain't backin' down
and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now?

it's all for, nothing
fighting for, nothing
crying for, nothing (woah)
but we wont let it go for, nothing
no not for, nothing
there should be, nothing
to a love like what we got, oh baby

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

oh baby, this love ain't gon' be perfect
and just how good its gonna be
we can fuss and we can fight
long as everything's all right between us
before we go to sleep
baby we're gonna be...

ohhhhh

i know sometimes its gonna rain,
but baby can we make up now cause i can't sleep through the pain.
girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me
no i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you
and i don't want you to go to bed, mad at me (oh no, no, no).

i love all my buddies

lol , attend birtday party for 3 time in the a week ..a same week
they are best buddies since past until now and i will try my best
to hold it on as long as im still breathing~
once again i wish happ bday again..
to kang yi ,jehovah(not the god), koon tee.
I like you because of
who you are to me….
A true friend.
And if I don’t get this
back I’ll take the hint.

from now on i will keep in touch with them ( my best buddies)
sum 1 teach me how to maintain it~ and i not be selfish~
so i decided to share with u guys
How Friendship Break


How Friendship Breaks


The reason for the break of friendship is very simple.These are the silly reasons for that

1.Both the friends think the other is busy to call and contact.and will not contact thinking that may be disturbing to him.then time pass on.They forget to contact further.

2.Next they think why should I contact now,let the other friend call me.The ego comes
in between friendship.Thus time pass on to months and at times years.Thus weakness the bondage.They forget each other in their day today work.

So friends do not make these silly excuses to break Friendship.Friendship is like our back bone to make us stand straight.Now a days communication is very much advanced so can make a phone call and say Hi------.or E-mail each other.

not really like the feeling~ i mean illness~

hi peeps. sorry for late posting..
plan to blog yesterday,buti'm really in the bad condition
throat pain.headche,fever,common cold and strengthless~
not really like the feeling~

2jan went go queensbay with 2 junior also the so call
ex-gf ..everthings just really out of my expectation
just so smooth~ after reached having lunch at dragon i
lol, just lost my appetite cause of their weird and disgusting
expression..1st lovee help me snap a pic..

after that hunting for new movie
finally watch bed time storries, it's just so nice
i hope after i said my story it will be true too~
then keep chatting n shopping until 6 smtg.


3jan i start ill keeping serious
attend fren's wedding his heigh is much more higher then me

n i meet a school mate there, she's jz like a drug to me
i'm really addicated by her smile, n her appearance
the bridgeroom is so alike my senior

then gather at island red cafe~ winford and jehovah going to continue
their edu at KL ..all the best for them
but now jehovah is coming back coz sum personal reason
i miss u guys... i really really do
damn tired at the nite of the day
strengthless to do anythings but sleep~

4jan
whole body jz like beat by sum 1 else, so pain n tired
afternoon play besketball with frens
better alot now~
so blog till here for today~
bed time archives~
good nite~

a brand new year~

well today is the first day of 2009, acctually nothing special for me
i wont knew it is a new year if without calendar~

when 30th i went to sch get christmas present from jess
at the same time get a 'owe meal from rainbow'..
i got to congratz to 3 of my ex 1st
1 get 6 another 7 a n rainbow get 8 a..
well done girl~
jz having lunch at apex,the same day my parents went to bangkok
to praY, so this might be a hollow new year for me~

when 31th adrian invite me go gurney
walao a ~ his aeroplane ...damn big
he said i should depart around 11 but he reached around 5...
it might be fate well i departed the penang's jetty i meet W
in the rapid bus a little shock .
she with her fren that name yun yin if not mistaken
help two old lady for the free seat~
randomly walking at gurney a couple minute then i meet W again
she seems like hiding from me..
i just got to say u could run but u couldnt hide~
meet her a theme park again...then she go sing K
obviously is avoiding from me...
i go MPh bookshop to hunt twilight novel .
spent rm35.50 to brought it..
then go milani cafe to rest n enjoyed my tea time with a cup of cappucino and
tiramisu~ meet esther there ..she mature alot and work as a waitres too~
them stupid adrian called me n said he reached ady. acc him brought a adidas
casual shoes and espirit formal shirt total rm299+199=498
he is jz so rich~ then call W to gv her a full stop present.
a necklace~
she looks at me with a laucht line and said thank you then
she's gone~
when night i keep calling her but she didnt ans my call.
i cant asleep~ totally a little girl name jit ming phone me
i just saja chit chat with her..she is so merely and childish~
slap around 4 am

1januray i make a call to here again n again
finally she ans and said now she's in the car right now
then text me the ans is no~
im so hurt ~just forget it~

memo
since we last time meet nothing changed between us and i can see
into ur eyes that something u wanna say to me
cause usually right now you'd wont hold on me but instead u telling me things have changed
and recently u found some 1 that u cecided to dedicate ur life
what hurt the most to me is letting go i just want u to know
i love u so ..so much and i thought u will wait for me.
i should took the chance and settled down
silly of me though i'll always have ur heart
i hate some one new coming and taking away my place
what am i suppose to do?
and there is no one else in this world for me but u.
i love u ,damn much n much more then he could.

Before I met you I had no clue what love was all I cared about was myself. Then we found each other and I truly found out what love was. Food lost its flavor, the whole world became hazy to where I don't even remember much of what happened. The only thing that mattered was you and being able to put my arms around you. We didn't even need to say anything, just stand next to each other and share our body heat. My true weakness was in her smile. Her face made me realize that everything was ok in the world and I honestly thought that this had to be heaven. Then when she left me it was honestly the worst feeling in the world. I felt like dieing, no, worse, I felt like dieing 1000000 times or ripping my heart out of my chest hoping and praying that if I did that I wouldn't hurt so much. Loosing a lover is the worst feeling in the world and it does the worst things to you. Ever since then I have never really expressed my self fully in fear that I would feel that kind of pain again.give another chance pls...i want to hold it on all the time~