a brand new year~

well today is the first day of 2009, acctually nothing special for me
i wont knew it is a new year if without calendar~

when 30th i went to sch get christmas present from jess
at the same time get a 'owe meal from rainbow'..
i got to congratz to 3 of my ex 1st
1 get 6 another 7 a n rainbow get 8 a..
well done girl~
jz having lunch at apex,the same day my parents went to bangkok
to praY, so this might be a hollow new year for me~

when 31th adrian invite me go gurney
walao a ~ his aeroplane ...damn big
he said i should depart around 11 but he reached around 5...
it might be fate well i departed the penang's jetty i meet W
in the rapid bus a little shock .
she with her fren that name yun yin if not mistaken
help two old lady for the free seat~
randomly walking at gurney a couple minute then i meet W again
she seems like hiding from me..
i just got to say u could run but u couldnt hide~
meet her a theme park again...then she go sing K
obviously is avoiding from me...
i go MPh bookshop to hunt twilight novel .
spent rm35.50 to brought it..
then go milani cafe to rest n enjoyed my tea time with a cup of cappucino and
tiramisu~ meet esther there ..she mature alot and work as a waitres too~
them stupid adrian called me n said he reached ady. acc him brought a adidas
casual shoes and espirit formal shirt total rm299+199=498
he is jz so rich~ then call W to gv her a full stop present.
a necklace~
she looks at me with a laucht line and said thank you then
she's gone~
when night i keep calling her but she didnt ans my call.
i cant asleep~ totally a little girl name jit ming phone me
i just saja chit chat with her..she is so merely and childish~
slap around 4 am

1januray i make a call to here again n again
finally she ans and said now she's in the car right now
then text me the ans is no~
im so hurt ~just forget it~

memo
since we last time meet nothing changed between us and i can see
into ur eyes that something u wanna say to me
cause usually right now you'd wont hold on me but instead u telling me things have changed
and recently u found some 1 that u cecided to dedicate ur life
what hurt the most to me is letting go i just want u to know
i love u so ..so much and i thought u will wait for me.
i should took the chance and settled down
silly of me though i'll always have ur heart
i hate some one new coming and taking away my place
what am i suppose to do?
and there is no one else in this world for me but u.
i love u ,damn much n much more then he could.

Before I met you I had no clue what love was all I cared about was myself. Then we found each other and I truly found out what love was. Food lost its flavor, the whole world became hazy to where I don't even remember much of what happened. The only thing that mattered was you and being able to put my arms around you. We didn't even need to say anything, just stand next to each other and share our body heat. My true weakness was in her smile. Her face made me realize that everything was ok in the world and I honestly thought that this had to be heaven. Then when she left me it was honestly the worst feeling in the world. I felt like dieing, no, worse, I felt like dieing 1000000 times or ripping my heart out of my chest hoping and praying that if I did that I wouldn't hurt so much. Loosing a lover is the worst feeling in the world and it does the worst things to you. Ever since then I have never really expressed my self fully in fear that I would feel that kind of pain again.give another chance pls...i want to hold it on all the time~