experience

Im always thankful for people who stay even if I show them the real me, coz I cant be someone others pressume or expect me to be.. it's nice to know you remain while I can just be me.. Saying I love you doesn't only mean loving someone coz you like someone, but for friends, it's the way to show concern and how much you care, so let me send this message saying I'm here for you coz i love you. It's unfair to think so much of you when you're not missing me at all. To cry when you never shed a tear. To love you when you say words that hurt my heart... and to live when you breathe for someone else. I loved someone before, I took the risk in loving her even if I dont know what will happen... One day U decided to give up and i strongly believe God wont leave us empty. If something's been taken away, god replaces it with something better. He asks us to put something down so we can pick up something greater and waiting someday, someone will come into your life and love your life ......yoyo

Heaven's call

For all things, that come and ago.,

There are some things, that are hard to let go,

It hurts me bad, in my heart to owe,

For the person, that is about to go,

For you were, the one to see,

Among everyone, alone I see,

Admiring you, was a sight to see,

For it took me down, to the deep blue sea.

Meeting you, afraid I was,

For admiring, was the one to cause,

What a way, to spot a pause,

The chemistry, that affixed the clause.

Love prevailed, to the highest peak,

As matrimony, came in to speak,

On behalf of God, being witness to seek,

But it all went off, in a shriek.

The bell rung, in an awful tone,

For the church gazed, upon the throne,

You fell against, a single stone,

For fate came in, a life it stole.

As now I lay, my hands on you,

Asking if, you love me too,
You look at me, and say "Hey you",

"I'll see you soon, in heaven too".

*TADA*

Be honest i'm so free now , done all my test and left a final presentation , study week is still 2 weeks away from now . I'm just too free to do nothing but blogging....=)

When someone asks me what is the easiest thing to do on earth… I will say it is falling in love. It doesn’t require any time or effort. It just happens… When you are not looking for it!
This post is about random people falling in love at random times. Whenever I mention *TADA*, I want you to picture the person falling in love. There is an assumption that young people are too early to fall in love. This claim is made by a father of a son in Love Actually, the movie, when the son tells his father that he has fallen in love with a girl, and his father giggle. Yet, there are some couples who get married right after they graduate from high school.*TADA*

This is a story of how I was in love.It started from a facebook chat perhaps , while killing by bored i have found her to chat with me to killed times .After that we seem getting closer and endless topic to share.I felt something that can only be explained by chemistry. *TADA*.We met some problem before being together lots of factors, including long distance, get mad sometimes, our relationship will reached a fullstop i thought but it's just not that worst=)
When I was spending time with her, I had nothing to worry about. No fear for future or anything. All I could think about was how I want to be with her as long as I can. I still remember every minute I have spent with her eventhought just infront of the flat screen and all the words we have exchanged.*TADA*

After several conversation, and webcam almost everyday for 2 weeks, we became an official couple on 5th april.*TADA* When she nodded and said yes it is happiness. It brings joy to my life like nothing else. Open your heart, fall in love and make the most of this life. :-) .Ask yourself ,life isn't about finding yourself,life is about creating yourself and i want you to be part of myself !

pics of the day

the moment

Love , what is love ? According to dictionary defination of love is (noun) a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.To me falling in love is a magical experience that happens between two people.

When you think of your past love,you may view it as a failure.But when you find a new love,you view as a teacher and take it as a learning process.In the game of love,it doesnt really matter who won or who lost.what is important is you know WHEN TO HOLD ON AND WHEN TO LET GO! You know you really love someone when you want her to be happy,even if thier happiness means that you’re not part of it. Everything happens for the best. Not all people feel love in the same way. One person in a relationship can feel unloved, even when the other person is trying hard to make things work but then never try never know You’ll never love a person you love unless you risk for love.

5th april The morning dawned with a bright sun and cloudless sky, its still 5am plus .Lately i got a cush on a girl , I want to be in a relationship with someone. I want to fall in love again. I don’t think I’m the type of person to be single. I’m the type of person who finds contentment, love and security with someone in my life. If I look to the future I can see myself with that person. I can see Pauline as being that possibility.This morning I received a response from her throught skype. In the conversation I expressed my ideas re relationships about which Itold her before . She was understanding and supportive; as I would expect nothing less. She’s such a sweet caring person. I have shared my feelings with several people the best advice that I got from at least two people is to NOT OVERTHINK IT and to simply BE IN AND EXPERIENCE THE MOMENT! I have THOUGHT about and tried to anticipate what MIGHT happen in the future. So I have to slap my hand and tell myself to STOP IT! I must live moment to moment and experience it as it is and as it may come.
that's all for today.

Hmmm

If you break up with someone, it is only because there is someone else waiting for you.

“It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.”

“Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”
~Unknown

And was it Oscar Wilde who said, "The heart was made to be broken." So true. Some people break hearts, some people’s heart get broken..

Here is one which you can use to try to patch up.

break up

I can’t talk to you anymore, it’s not that I am mad at you, it’s just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can’t have you and that makes me love you even more.

And for the girl who would like to give it back as they come:
” For all those men who believe there’s no reason to buy the cow when you can get the milk for free…Currently 80% of women are against marriage, too, as they have wised up to the fact that for 7 ounces of sausage it’s not worth buying the whole pig. ”

Here is one painful quote:

“The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live.”

Isn’t this true: We enter relationships as a somebody and leave them as a nobody.

If I stop thinking of you, will you be gone to me forever?
- But can you stop thinking of her??

frenship!!!

Some people don't catch on, they rather just pretend while things are going smooth, they smile and call you 'friend'...its funny that how you never know who cares until it hurts,
and when it's over, does it matter who blew off who first?What upsets me is not that you lied to me, but that from now on I can longer believe you......

A long and silent year

14th intima stact club eventually going to the last stop....and something really worth to share with u guys are i explore myself, (not the kind of in naked ) but i push myself to the limit (in theory i guess). yesterday was sharing for all of us and every one riped off the disguise ,face to face talk bout all sort things. It's really a warm and kind of ardent to shoot out every little single things from the bottom of my heart to every one and i made it and i believe others as well. Congratz!!
Someone who i really got to say sorry to....chi heng...( you know la , i dont wan to say it here la)
跟你在一起也有一年liao，难免偶尔有一些肺腑之言。I sincerely hope you're happy with this 'dream girl' of yours, enjoy every moment together and cherish the sweet love. It's not easy to find a love like yours you know.I sincerely hope you'll get good grades in UK and enjoy the college life there evnthough u dont know which U u r going to yet.(but not the college chicks i guess. XD)
And I sincerely hope you'd just enjoy your life, knowing the fact that you're one of the most amazing guys in some people's life.
err, the only pic with 2 of us i can find in my pc

Frankly,sometimes i really rather to live in lies than expore my true feelings . Every 1 wearing the'colour spec' look at you when you fall , argh!!!! its so damn not good. No one would like to live under the microscope so pls treat others as you wish to be treated . i realize that how i cound not be accountable for....i left alot and alot of regrateful over the entire year....i dont want this kind of life anymore after all. finally i decided to stay at the 15th intima stact club to finished something that i havent done and for sure i want to prove myself again (especially to someone who never give up on me).People always say things happen for a reason ,some says i look fake or im so damn act (i pretend i didnt heard bout that...XD).COZ I'M NOT!!!
Maybe part of you i didnt get into your life but all of u really become turning point of my life , i learn alot from all of you .thx
Dad keeps remind me how important responsibilty is since i was small,till now i still coundn't really fullfill the blanks of it. i wanna change and i need all of u to changed me....
All the other 22 commitees are in my thanks list so i pissed you off previously hope you (Big People Big Shining) if i really worst like a prisoner forgive the prisoner free and discover that the prisoner was you. And i won't forget sincerely and truthfully say Sorry here and im willing to change to change better....

Headed to time square this afternoon ,had a great shopping with stact family and wallet is seriously bleeding now. Got to boom the installationg night , if not really sorry to my wallet .its gonna be our night our stage!!! Hope the bond wont be break that easily somehow i just hope i can back to the past...
We take everything we have for granted, we'd never realize the significance of things till they're taken away from us. It's human nature, or at least my nature. Life has a way of showing you everything that matters one by one, bit by bit. The moment you think you know it all, that's the moment you're off the right path. Maturity isn't something you gain after teenage years, it's a recollection of all your wrongdoings and experiences over the years, it's your ability to face 'what's next', it's about how you maintain a balance in your wealth, health and relationship with people. In fact, I can safely say that I still have a long way to go, endless list of things to explore in life.
lastly i wish for the coming term
- learn to appreciate stuff
- be a better person- be healthier
- everyone around me to be healthier
-laught as much as you breath and love as long as you live
- attend the installation night with full of joy and insane 1..

let pics to end the talk


off to bed night...
good night all!!